Requiem: a psalm for the n’hoods

Requiem is the song we sing
No dirge, this...but
Beauty blown from the ashes
Psalm of loss and longing
'When will I see you again?'

jfig 2025
NC, FL, LA

A requiem is a song of remembrance, typically written long after the initial shock of loss is over. They are extraordinary pieces of music composed of all the love and longing one’s notes can recall. The compositions are brave, passionate, and determined—stories that dream to continue giving, distilled by heart and mind.

As the fires burned this winter in LA, I observed as through a telescope; lens trained on my daughter’s physical address, mapping the movements of her and her coworkers. Two things stood out to me in high relief: the way they functioned as a family, acknowledging their own loss as a business, while at the same time resolving to be a resource of help and hope in their community. And two, the reality that entire neighborhoods were dismantled, reduced to rubble. Yet in those spaces breathed the histories of families, neighbors, schools, the local corner shop. People lost not only their belongings and aspects of livelihood, but they lost their people, in broad encircling swaths. The same could be said of North Carolina and Florida midst the effects of Helene. People one saw everyday would no longer be present; for weeks, or months…or perhaps forever. This remembrance, of what once was and might never be again, is a requiem.

I have penned a simple verse. But the stories of those who lived it, will last forever. I pray they have the necessary time and space, and love’s fortitude to say the words. That what to some of us are pinpoints on a map: Loma Alta Elementary School and Saint Mark’s Episcopal Church, Penland School of Craft and Burnsville, NC; find both their own resilience and fortifying compassion of humanity surrounding them.

Requiem II

Saturday, I saw you at the park
pup wagging his tail in recognition, for
you are known to us.

Sunday, winding our way to worship
we saw your daffodils - the first this spring.
Your smile was just as bright.

Dad called the mechanic:
ten years
you have been fixing our car.

Suddenly, our car is no more
awash...
in ash and memories.

The church has a high water mark
musty smell
and zero hymnals.

There are new daffodils
planted willy nilly on newborn hillocks
next to tires and trestles, all askew.

Our smiles are some days plastered in weariness.
Thursday at the donation center; yours
was real.

I hope you and your dog
Mechanic Mike's grease rag, and my 3rd grade teacher's smile
are all planted somewhere in my future.

At night I dream: when will we see you again?

jfig 2025

Requiem III

My heart is lodged, somewhere...
like this rock, but
in my throat
...not knowing.

When will I see you again?

jfig 2025

30 Days in Gennesaret: Imperatives Day 22

In writing this morning’s poem, I realized that I have come to hold some of it’s ‘observations’ as facts.; when , in fact, they are observations.  Aaah, the lovely thing about Jesus; He holds each story unique. May you feel the power of his reading of your story, and writing you into his own. J

Imperatives

I. we run toward healing

concept of ‘fix’ clutched tightly in hand

imploring

 

healing, the way things were before

before divorce, before cancer

before loss

 

before diagnosis of mental illness

if only we could heal ourselves

I should, I must

whooshing up the chimneys of one’s soul

cyclone-like

 

when the fire has burned itself out

hospice begs one consider another question

healing?

breathing better, or peacefully

allowing to breathe one’s last *

 

II. in Gennesaret,

healing comes

in meeting the Healer

face to face, masks cast aside

 

in ‘condescending’

to receive. Jesus could

heal a man (delicate subject)

while having breakfast over the ashes

 

if you are invited

say yes

one must let go of the clutchings

to take hold of the fringe

    jfig     4/2020

 

cooking pot near burning wood
Photo by @rrinna on Pexels.com

I reality, I have been ‘writing’ this poem for years, pondering the imperatives we bring to God when we ask for healing. The woman who was bleeding: what happened in the twelve long years leading up to the moment in which she finally reached out and touched Jesus’ robe, and He felt the power of faith go out? I recognize that thoughts of peaceful and breathing midst our current picture of Covid 19 seem mutually exclusive. If you are experiencing pain and personal loss as a result of Covid, I cannot begin to speak into your story in the moment. Only Jesus…

If you would like to explore further:

John 21:1-19; Luke 8:43-48